Wednesday, September 3, 2008

da broken slippers!

right so this incident happened with me a few days back!i was running down the stairs of my house..as usual...n my slippers which i usually wear around the house suddenly broke!i thought what a useless thing it was,how flimsy could it get,and now stupid thing is broken!...i went to mom n said"mom, my chappals just broke!" mom said "your pink polka dot 1s?gud!you needed new 1s anyway!we'll get them tomorrow.."the next day we went shopping and i got another pair of slippers...pink 1s again of course!so i was strutting around the house in my new slippers now...after sometime i felt i wasn't comfortable...went to mom again"mom tnese chappals are not good..very uncomfy!"..mom shrugged irritatingly"u tried them and selected them yourself..don't ask me now"..i went to my room and removed them and got on my bed...i saw my old polka dot slippers near the a/c transformer and i suddenly felt a lot of longing for it rushing through me!love for chappals!which were very comfortable!they'd always been so comfy...so convenient..i'd even worn them on holi...and when i had a sprain it was the most comfy footwear for me,indoors n outdoors!and then a thought came to me.."you always realise the importance of something when its not with you anymore!"

and that's what i started reflecting on!isn't this saying just so true!?not only for things but also people?!we take so many things and people for granted but when they're not around,you realise what they are to you!even a small thing like a chappal made me think that way,imagine how it must be with people!many a times in life,we take so many people for granted,thinking if they're nice to us they're 'supposed' to be,if they're doing something for us they're just 'supposed' to,and do u know who are the people we take the most granted for?!it's our parents!yeah!no matter how much we love are parents,at some point of time we have taken them for granted..specially in our teen years!our parents do so much for us,expect so much from us,want the best for us,scold us when they feel we're on the wrong track,correct us,are always there when we need them,give us everything we ask for...but do we give them all that they ask for?forget all,even some of the things?do we fulfill the basic expectations?everything that you have right now and that you are right now is because of your parents,ever thanked them for it?ever said thank you when you got your pocket money instead of cribbing about increasing it?(lol)ever said thank you for the clothes you wearing,the pc/laptop you working on,the new jazzy phones we change every 6 months or so,the holidays they take you on?i don't think many of us have!because for us it is their duty!they 'have' to do all this for us!we'll also do the same for our kids...but won't you want your kids to acknowledge all that you do for them?but what do we do?...we shout,crib,complain!if our parents sometimes lose their temper and say something to us,they have every right to...because they do so much for us....expecting so little!..try saying thank you to your parents for something next time,and see the smile on their face..i've tried it,it works!

it's not only parents,sometimes we take certain friends for granted!you were best friends for life,inseparables,sisters,brothers,whatever!but now you have new friends and this old friend of yours is outta the picture!you have a big prob in life and you go to your new friend while the old friend doesn't have a clue...you'd promised your old friend that we'll meet atleast once a month but now with new friends who has the time!old friend messaged/called,you forgot to reply/are busy,maybe later,tomorrow,day after,...then you fight with your new friend,new friend ditches you/bitches about you and who do you remember?!the forgotten old friend!and what does the old friend do?welcomes you with open arms,consoles you with all their heart,tries to brighten you up when you feel like crying!he's still very much there!even though you had forgotten him in you very 'busy' life!he still can't see you sad,see you cry!he wants revenge from the person who hurt you,even more severely than you!not only because of new friends but also your lovers can come in the way...you are so busy and involved with your respective bfs/gfs that no time for friends now...rare cases but actually happens...

then the lovers!they also take each other for granted...i've seen beautiful relationships break because of this very reason!but lovers after all love each other,they make up beautifully for it!(atleast a majority do..).sometimes a person loves you very much and can't express it,you fight with them,ask them all the time if they love you,bug the shit outta them to give you 'more' time,expect they'll do things the way you like and it just goes on...there's no end to expectations from both sides...but if 1 day 1 person walks out,n specially the 1 who was bugged,from whom the world is expected,then the expecting person forgets all expectations and wants that person back!that person then realises the importance of that person and realises that even though you told them that they took you for granted it was the other way round...it was you who made the relationship come to this stage by continously not understanding the other person's point of view...and its worse if the other person had always obliged to your wishes and you were still stupid enough to be dissatisfied...enjoy your relationships...don't ever ponder over the flaws...but just what's beautiful n meaningful...if there's something that you seriously want from that person,some change you expect,they'll do it if they're comfortable with it..never force them and sit on their heads with it!

i gazed up from my old slippers to my new 1s...i actually had tears in my eyes...i'd been thinking so deeply about so many feelings..and usually when i think senti stuff i shed a tear or too...i took my old chappals and went to my nearby market where a cobbler sat..and got my old chappals fixed...!

i came back home and went to mum's room...she was reading and looked up and then down at the old chappals i was again wearing.!"you got them fixed?"she asked.."yup i did,went to the cobbler near the mandir" i said...she gave me an incredulous look and asked"but why?you got new 1s now..why still wear this?"...i went up to her,kissed her n said "cos mum,some stuff is too valuable for me now."she asked weirdly"some stuff like chappals?!" i just smiled at her n said "na mum,thanks for evrything"..she smiled back...

Monday, September 1, 2008

eva thot how unexpected things get?somethin u neva thot possible ws actually possible?ppl u actually trust ur life wit wud end up turnin der bakz on u!ppl u trust ur heartz wit return dem broken 2 u!u c it ol d tym..but wen it hapnz 2 u its lyk d end of d wrld!wen oda ppl go thru it,its so easy 2 talk 2 em n make em understnd buh wen it hapnz 2 u ,ol d philosophical stff js goes dwn d drain!ol tat mattrz den is y me?n y tat person?wt did i do so rong?ws i nt a gud frnd?a gud person?did ma emotions neva reach him/her?evn if u realise l8r tatz its ur mistak,its 2 late 2 apologise...d person jus changes n moves on...leavin u behind...starin at d broken fragments,of wt ws previously a frndship or a relatnship witout wich u cnt imagin urslf!u end up sayin tings u dun wan2 cos u knw ur very impatient..buh dun dey knw u enuf 2 know wen u actually mean it!dun dey understnd u aftr being wit u 4 so long!1 yr,5yrs evn 10 yrs isnt enuff tym!hw do u make em realise wt dey mean 2 u wen ur wordz dun go across?ur feelins dun go across?onli wen ur angry n say bad tingz,it hurtz em buh wen u giv em luv,it goes unnoticed...is it cz dey tk u 4 granted?ur bad,ur mean,buh derz a lot of love n care in ur heart...duz anybody care 2 c tat!?u get 2 hear things lyk love is jus an illusion..its jus tat 2 ppl get used 2 each oda!is tat d hollowness tat rshipz r being abused 2 now!?n aftr seeing ol dis-distrust,hatred,emotionless thinkin hav i or u changed?no v haven't~v stil believ in love,frendship n rshipz!v stil trust,v hope,v wait,v go against r own natures tryin 2 figure out stuff,succesfully or odawise...v becomin wiser or mayb weaker...buh y do v make ol dese compromises?at such a young age tat 2!its onli cos of ur emotions!emotions make u do so many tings,its lyk r world revolvs arnd emotionz!buh unfortunately nt many ppl realise d importance of dese very emotions!4 dem deyr jus lyk toyz,2 play wit n nuin els!buh cn u do anytin abt it!?can u stop ur hrt frm breakin,ur tearz frm fallin,ur mind from thinkin?feels lyk if n only if der ws a way tat u cud jus giv up ur own feelins 4 a few days n relax...der ws a way u cud take a brk from ur lyf 4 a few days n return refreshd instead of tinkin it ovr n ovr 4 dayz,weekz,mnthz evn!buh tats d law of life...u hav 2 suffer n learn..u hav 2 get hurt n trust agen...u hav 2 hav ur hrt broken n den be restored bak...its lyk a machinery buh u hav2 make it life!u hav 2 do ol tat it takez!cos u walk alone!ders nt anoda person in d world hu hz exactly d same feelins n thotz..tat life wil alwayz b lyk dis...ul hav 2 accept it...sumtymz happily,sumtyms unhappily...n none of dis shit wil bring me down...i wil still love,still hope,stil have rshipz,stil care no matter wot!cos i cant stay without dese emotions...life 4 me will cease 2 exist d day i giv up ma emotionz...